they call me Never

5:57PM - promotion

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3:08PM

*&heart*

9:44PM

6:25PM - i love affair...

i'm not his girlfriend. i may never BE his girlfriend.

i'm in love with him. he's silly. he's funny. he's gorgeous. he's artistic, in more ways than i can handle. he thinks i'm beautiful until that moment when i'm insecure about my own looks. he wants to take things slow or not at all. he IS the muffin man *smirks*. he's brilliant. he's into politics. yes, he gets angry now and again, but dont we all?

i'm not his girlfriend. i may never BE his girlfriend.

but i love him.

he ditched me two nights in a row. for good reasons, i know. i'm not mad, or that upset. i just wish the man had a house phone.

i wish he could tell me WHY he isnt showing up. maybe then i wouldnt worry my ass off so much. if i only knew how he felt about me. i know he cares at least alittle about me, but twice? two nights, man that stings. i'll take some shots of vadka, get over it, call his mom, and ask whats up. shes at work right now, so i'm just gonna lay off.

but i LOVE him. i mean... there is this constant pull in his direction that makes me feel like hes just... that special person. and i love it. i cant get enough of it. every time i feel his skin under my hand, i shiver. it feels like he was mine in the last life. i know i was his.

i am his.

Current mood: sigh...

Current music: personal jesus Marilyn manson

3:14AM

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10:00PM - definately a son of God

I'm ah rollin you a j
sittin at my window
you're paranoid but hey
you look my way and i see
out of the corner of my eyes
that smile i love to think
was mine

definately a son of God
definately a lover of Christ,
definately worshiper
of the three faceted face
please wont you steal me away
and we can become eachothers vice
drop me break me, as long as i want you
baby its all right...

a song comes on the radio
i like to dance
a song comes on the radio
you watch my prance.


when i grow up
i want to to be...

gone.

10:31AM - lets see if you all can tell who inspired me, eh?

we met in such a dream,
i was 16 you were 20
but the glass broke...
my finger bleeds tears into your eyes
wonder why you cry
i know your feather falls short of my birds
but when you dance it comes up to the clouds
and my feet dont touch the ground
i dont like your girlfriend, but hey
i guess thats all right
i guess everything wont be ok
i'll sit against the corner and the wall
try real hard not to fall
like the walking chyna doll i am.

you were a little boy when i met you
i was just a babygirl...
you were always a half crazed,
look at you, baby,
you're an oxymoron.
love is a knife in the heart,
and you're a victim in the alley
at night.

and no, don't like your girlfriend
has one of your lovers do you so much harm
i loved you first and you know i would prefer
if she didn't empty her syringes into your arm...

now you can show me your pain
i can oh and ah at the display
or perhaps a laugh and a joke to make it all ok
i'm supposed to be the prince who rides up
unties your hands
or maybe i'm supposed to be the frighted girlfriend who thinks
she understands

9:32PM

10:28AM

(A) First, recommend to me:
1. a movie:
2. a book:
3. a musical artist, song, or album:

(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want.

(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything.

3:53PM - some websites you can go to to help.

Action Against Hunger
247 West 37th Street, Suite 1201
New York, NY 10018
212-967-7800
www.aah-usa.org
ADRA International
Asia Tsunami Crisis Fund
12501 Old Columbia Pike
Silver Spring, MD 20904
800-424-2372
www.adra.org
Air Serv International
6583 Merchant Place, Suite 100
Warrenton, VA 20187
www.airserv.org
American Friends Service Committee
American Friends Service Committee
1501 Cherry Street
Philadelphia, PA
215-241-7060
www.afsc.org

American Jewish Joint Distribution Committee
JDC: South Asia Tsunami Relief
Box 321
847A Second Avenue
New York, NY 10017
212-885-0867
www.jdc.org

American Jewish World Service
45 West 36th Street, 10th Floor
New York, NY 10018
800-889-7146
www.ajws.org
American Red Cross
International Response Fund
PO Box 37243
Washington, DC 20013
800-HELP-NOW
www.redcross.org
AmeriCares
88 Hamilton Ave.
Stamford, CT 06902
800-486-4357
www.americares.org
Ananda Marga Universal Relief Team (AMURT)
Tsunami Fund
6810 Tilden Lane
Rockville, MD 20852
301-984-0217
www.amurt.net
ARMDI, Israeli Red Cross
Tsunami Emergency Fund
888 7th Ave.
Suite #403
New York, NY 10106
866-632-2763

Baptist World Aid
Asia Tidal Waves
405 North Washington St.
Falls Church, VA 22046
703-790-8980
www.bwanet.org/bwaid
B’nai B’rith International
B’nai B’rith Disaster Relief Fund
2020 K. St. NW
7th Floor
Washington, DC 20006
212-490-3290
www.bnaibrith.org
Brother’s Brother Foundation
1200 Galveston Ave.
Pittsburgh, PA 15233
412-321-3160
www.brothersbrother.org
CARE
151 Ellis Street, NE
Atlanta, GA 30303-2440
800-521-CARE
www.care.org
Catholic Relief Services
209 West Fayette St.
Baltimore, MD 21201
877-HELP-CRS
www.catholicrelief.org
Christian Children’s Fund
Child Alert Fund
PO Box 26484
Richmond, VA 23261
800-776-6767
www.christianchildrensfund.org
Christian Reformed World Relief Committee
South Asia Earthquake
2850 Kalamazoo Ave. SE
Grand Rapids, MI, 49560
800-55-CRWRC
www.crwrc.org
Church World Service
PO Box 968
Elkhart, IN 46515
800-297-1516
www.churchworldservice.org
Concern Worldwide, US
104 East 40th Street, Suite 903
New York, NY 10016
212-557-8000
www.concernusa.org
Direct Relief International
27 South La Patera Lane
Santa Barbara, CA 93117
805-964-4767
www.directrelief.org
Food for the Hungry
Asia Quake Relief
1224 E. Washington St.
Phoenix, AZ 85034
800-2-HUNGERS
www.fh.org
Doctors Without Borders/Medecins Sans Frontieres
PO Box 2247
New York, NY 10116-2247
888-392-0392
www.doctorswithoutborders.org
Episcopal Relief and Development
South Asia Relief Fund
815 Second Avenue
New York, NY 10017
(800) 334-7626
www.er-d.org
Habitat for Humanity International
Asia Tsunami Response Fund
121 Habitat St
Americus, GA 31709
229-924-6935
www.habitat.org
Heart to Heart International
401 S. Clairborne
Suite 302
Olathe, KS 66062
888-800-4327
www.hearttoheart.org
International Aid
17011 W. Hickory
Spring Lake, MI 49456
800-968-7490
www.internationalaid.org
International Federation of Red Cross and Red Crescent Societies
PO Box 372
CH-1211 Geneva 19
Switzerland
41-22-730-4222
www.ifrc.org
International Medical Corps
Tsunami Emergency Response
1919 Santa Monica Blvd., Suite 300
Santa Monica, CA 90404-1950
800-481-4462
www.imcworldwide.org
International Orthodox Christian Charities
PO Box 630225
Baltimore, MD 21263-0225
877-803-4622
www.iocc.org
International Relief Teams
Asia Earthquake/Floods
3547 Camino Del Rio South, Suite C
San Diego, CA 92108
619-284-7979
www.IRTeams.org
International Rescue Committee
PO Box 5058
Hagerstown, MD 21741-9874
877-REFUGEE or 733-8433
www.theIRC.org
Latter-Day Saint Charities
Welfare Services Emergency Response
50 East North Temple Street, Room 701
Salt Lake City, Utah, 84150-6800
801-240-3544
http://www.lds.org/ldsfoundation
Lutheran World Relief
South Asia Tsunami
700 Light St.
Baltimore, MD 21230
410-230-2700
www.lwr.org
MAP International
PO Box 215000
Brunswick, GA 3121-5000
800-225-8550
www.map.org
Mercy Corps
Southeast Asia Earthquake
Dept. W
PO Box 2669
Portland, OR 97208
800-852-2100
www.mercycorps.org
Northwest Medical Teams
PO Box 10
Portland, OR 97207-0010
503-624-1000
www.nwmedicalteams.org
Operation USA
8320 Melrose Avenue, Ste. 200
Los Angles, CA 90069
800-678-7255
www.opusa.org
Oxfam America
Asia Earthquake Fund
P.O. Box 1211
Albert Lea, MN 56007-1211
800-77-Oxfam
http://www.oxfamamerica.org
Plan USA
Asia Disaster
155 Plan Way
Warwick, RI 02886
800-556-7918
www.planusa.org
Project Concern International
Asia Tsunamis Press List
5151 Murphy Canyon Road Suite 320
San Diego, CA 92123
858-279-9690
www.projectconcern.org
Project HOPE
Asia Tsunami Response
255 Carter Hall Lane
Millwood, VA 22646
800-544-4673
www.projecthope.org

Relief International
11965 Venice Blvd. .405
Los Angeles, CA 90066
800-572-3332
www.ri.org

Save the Children
Asia Earthquake/Tidal Wave Relief Fund
54 Wilton Road
Westport, CT 06880
800-728-3843
www.savethechildren.org

SAWSO (Salvation Army World Service Office)
South Asia Relief Fund
615 Slaters Lane
Alexandria, VA, 22313
800-SAL-ARMY
Stop Hunger Now
SE Asia crisis
2501 Clark Ave, Suite 200
Raleigh, NC 27607
888-501-8440
www.stophungernow.org

UMCOR
Advance #274305, South Asia Emergency
475 Riverside Drive
Room 330
New York, NY 10115
212-870-3815
www.umcor.org

United Way International
United Way South Asia Response Fund
c/o United Way International
701 North Fairfax Street
Alexandria, VA, 22314, USA
703-519-0092, x113 (For stock gifts or bank wire transfer only)
www.national.unitedway.org/tsunamiresponse/

US Fund for UNICEF
333 East 38th Street
New York, NY 10016
800-4-UNICEF
www.unicefusa.org

World Concern
19303 Fremont Ave. N
Seattle, WA 98133
800-755-5022
www.worldconcern.org

World Emergency Relief
2270-D Camino Vida Roble
Carlsbad, CA 92009
760-930-8001
www.worldemergencyrelief.org

World Hope International
Asia Relief
P.O. Box 96338
Washington DC 20090
888-466-4673
www.worldhope.org

World Relief
SE Asia Earthquake/Tsunamis
7 E. Baltimore St.
Baltimore, MD 21202
443-451-1900
www.worldrelief.org

World Vision
PO Box 70288
Tacoma, Washington 98481-0288
888-56-CHILD
www.worldvision.org

1:28PM

Dear FRIENDS

"The strongest earthquake for 40 years has claimed several thousands lives across South Asia.

Tidal waves triggered by the quake struck across the region causing widespread destruction." - SKY NEWS


"The largest earthquake to hit the planet in 40 years struck at 6:58 a.m. (local time) on Dec. 26 off the western coast of Sumatra. About 44,000 people have been reported to be killed in nine countries, including India, Indonesia, and Sri Lanka, following massive tsunamis, with thousands washed out to sea." - WORLDVISION


People out there need our financial help, and they need it now. As of Wednesday 29th December 2004, the "Tsunami Death Toll" stands at 60,000+. That figure is thought to rise dramatically still as more bodies are recovered from this tragic natural disaster.
There are many charities and aid agencies which have already deployed teams out to the areas affected. But due to the massive impact that these Tsumani's have created, the lives of millions of people will be affected by disease, lack of food, and more importantly, lack of fresh water.

I have begun this post on livejournal in the hopes that people will copy into their own journals, their own communities, and make use of the information contained in it.

This is not a begging letter or email. So if you can't afford to give, please just post it in your journal, so that others who may be able to donate.
Right now there are people in South East Asia who have lost everything.
£1, $1, 1EURO, is better than nothing at all.

Please feel free to add links of any charity accepting donations for this cause.




The Command Post is a newsblog that is being continuously updated to contain information regarding this disaster. More importantly it contains up to date information about where you can donate.
http://www.command-post.org


British Red Cross/Blue Peter Appeal
http://www.bluepeter.redcross.org.uk/tsappeal/appeal.htm

American Red Cross http://www.redcross.org

Google Ways to Help with Tsunami Relief
http://www.google.com/tsunami_relief.html

Medicins Sans Frontieres
http://www.msf.org

Oxfam UK
http://www.oxfam.org.uk

UNICEF
http://www.unicef.org

Donate via Amazon.com
http://s1.amazon.com/exec/varzea/ts/my-pay-page/PX3BEL97U9A4I/104-2867334-2853546

Save The Children
http://www.savethechildren.org/radio_asia_earthquake.asp?stationpub=hp_122704_release

Red Cross & Red Crescent
http://www.ifrc.org

PLEASE DO WHATEVER YOU CAN!

7:52PM

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i hurt
















































lets get busy.

3:50PM

i've missed him. he's so amazing.


he makes me feel so... significant.

sorry i cant write more right now.

i'll be on later.



see ya.

8:48PM

its been a while...

i suppose the reason is in his eyes. he knows he murdered her. no, shes not dead as his hands. but he gave her the method, he burried her the grave. her, all but... perfect, him, all or nothing. so where did the pain go, but into her hands and heart. her eyes clashed with his, there was no fight. just tears and hugs, these where his weapons. i'love'you's and will you be mine's. these were his WMPs. the best part of what has happened was the part i must have missed. she wasnt writing any goodbyes, she was just remembering the times when they were very young. holding eachother like little ones do, making sure the rain didnt make them cold. and when everything was settled in her mind a sudden insanity took over.

boom
boom
boom
boom
the walls had music

boomboomboomboomboomboomboomboomboomboomboomboomboom.....

i'm so sorry, please forgive me, my mind has wandered...

ring around the rosey...

bring me the black death. bring me any death. she laughed hysterically slamming her fists against the walls of her soundproof basement and realized with a sudden excitement that she was going to die without him. as her mind spun around him kissing the other girl, she kept slamming her bloody arms against the ground and laughing until she lost her voice. the evils of sin, they mattered as much as a fly on the wall now. striving for mediocrity was nothing now, screaming in your sleep was no more. perfection was her goal. and here, in the basement of blood, she had it. with one last scream, she slammed her skull, hard, against the concrete slab of a floor.

he walked in with the other girl, hours later, after asking her mother where she was. his facial expression didnt change.

he just. left....

2:14PM

so is the rumor true?


thats right folks.


Nessa is a workin on a big fat masterpeice.


shhhhhhhhhhh cant tell you what it is

i havent posted in a while because i've been busy on it and school and being sick and whatnot

but i'll finish it within the next two months...

be patient.

4:53PM

you are not a beautiful and unique snowflake?


fuck that.

haha